So, the past week has been so-so as far as achieving my goals. I cannot honestly say whether I've lost 2 lbs, although I hope so. I'll be weighing myself at the end of the month, and the total weight loss should be about 8 lbs (bringing us to a total weight of 243). I don't feel, however, that the fact that we've not been balls-to-the-wall with it is a precursor of doom. Rather, I'm looking at it as room for improvement. If I were scoring myself on a scale of 1 to 10, I'd score myself thusly on this past week:
And I'm detecting a pattern. On the days when I eat right, do not "cheat" or slip, get in enough protein, etc, I have plenty of time and energy to exercise. On the days that I do not manage to eat enough or right, I don't, so I don't go to the gym. So for this week, I will do the following to help myself:
1. Pre-prepare meals at home so that I can grab them and go the next day
2. Lay out my clothing (workout) for the week
3. Make sure I have healthy snacks at work
And finally, I'm going to stop stressing about whether I got the position or not. It's not that big a deal if I didn't - I love my current job. If I did get the new one, then that's great too. I cannot let my work stresses (or cravings for Mexican food!) derail me. I am back, dammit, and my body's going to fall in. I refuse to live my life as a fat person any more. That's not who I am on the inside, and it's time for me to be a true reflection of myself.